Staring into the middle distance between the book shelves and Utah, it becomes apparent that I am either counting dust particles in the air or daydreaming. I'm doing a lot of daydreaming recently - it may or may not have something to do with the loads of cold and allergy medicines I am pounding just to stay functional. (Aren't head colds and allergies the best?!?) Or it may be that I'm ready for something out of the ordinary.
High school library is surprisingly bustling (so good!). Even when I am not directly helping someone, I usually have a video, audio book ("Denton Little's Death Date" - so good!), or music going on my computer. Something to break the monotony of going through each of over 600 patron records individually, checking all the fields, making corrections, adding, modifying...next record.
Looking forward to the next class to visit or friend to pop in.
On the edge of my seat for lunch, not just because my belly is going to turn on itself, but because we have the BEST conversations full of laughter and tears and frustrations and joys with those three ladies. (And I get to have it every day!!!)
Afterwards, I wrote a book review that uses the phrase 'so good' twice within 4 sentences because word choice is hard right now. I laughed and posted it anyway!
I got to sample YouTube videos from a visionary English teacher who is cool enough to think outside the box. She - like many of my teacher friends - wants to give life experiences like candy. Wants to show them the calm. The gift of the quiet. And it hits me.
That is what I need!
Tonight, I am seeking the quiet. Shutting off my character's voices. Putting aside my to do list. Silencing my audio book, music, or videos. Letting joy simmer (because joy is always richer after it has deglazed - so good!). Making my frustration pause at the door because "it's quiet time".
We all do, right? Sometimes just need complete silence to feel at peace.
To remind yourself of who you are (sans brain sluggishness, grumpiness, and general exhaustion).
To envision your dreams.
To let yourself smile at old memories.
You'll snatch these moments and tuck them into your heart. Use them to fortify yourself. Let them amplify your joys and dull your pains. And maybe, when you feel better, you'll find better words than 'so good!'
Don't forget to give yourself the gift of quiet! It will be so good! :)
Mandy Peterson is the author of "Before I Shatter". She is also a mother, wife, librarian, book reviewer, and self-proclaimed chocolate connoisseur.