How did I get here?
I went from watching funny SNL sketches on YouTube to watching videos about vision boards within ten minutes. I've never been a big resolution maker. Frankly, I've disappointed myself one too many times on those. Life often provides opportunities that do not align with what I think my goals should be. So, I break resolutions all the time. Years ago, I decided to not make them anymore.
Vision boards always made me giggle. I know. I'm evil. I don't know how a poster of pictures and quotes is supposed to make me a better human. But...
Seeing the vision boards on these videos made sense. I have some very abstract goals. Really. I wrote them down. Are you ready to be impressed? Scrawled on the back of one of my seven-year-old son's pencil drawings proclaiming our home as a "Sasquatch-Free Zone", the following list lives:
(No editing on that one.)
Then I poked my long-neglected Pinterest account and created a new board, creatively titled "2018 vision board". I typed in each of my goals, found pins meaningful to me, and there you have it. 16 pins to maybe keep me on track towards these five goals.
Vision boards are pretty personal. It reveals things you perceive to be weaknesses about yourself in a way a cute little list doesn't. I'm not always confident in how effective I am at putting my ideas into words. I look at both of my drafts sitting on my computer right now and feel strongly that they are the best things I've ever written. Yet I lose steam as I write them. I struggle. I realize that I'm developing and that I need to keep myself motivated. So it's a huge part of my vision board for next year. Here is what my vision board looks like:
Your goals may not be the same as mine.
They may be very similar.
They may be way cooler (like the friend of mine who wants to learn belly dancing this year)!
You have one thing that feels like a struggle. One thing that keeps you up at night and wakes you up in the morning because you're so excited to do it and yet you may doubt. Something that maybe you have never told anyone else. (Perhaps on a "secret" Pinterest board...)
My friend, dear reader, you. can. do. it.
You may be scared. It's going to be hard. But you can do it.
I believe in you!
Maybe making a vision board will help you bring those goals into focus. I think it is worth exploring - at least for me.
Maybe you need someone to whisper your goals to. "I want to..."
I'm here. I'd love to hear your goal. I'll hold it close to my heart and help you reach it however I can.
You can do it.
And so can I.
3. Seda - weird name. Second time I've said that in a few pages on my phone.
4. August 31 is three days before the official start of school?!? Where do these people go to school?!?! My school started on August 9th! I feel a greater sense of injustice than I did when last year's school calendar came out. <insert pouting here>
5. So. Many. Kids. To. Keep. Straight. Seriously, 2 sets of twins and Seda absorbed Sawyer in the womb. This is a lot to get used to. Honestly, I'm not sure if I will ever keep them straight.
6. This mom is eerily like me. TOO cheery. A writer. Loves movies. I hope she doesn't snap.
7. I really like the openings to each chapter being historical plaques and pamphlets for the house. Really adds some interest. (Added later: it totally comes back into the story too! YAY!)
8. Okay, new guests. More names. More people to keep straight. I can do this!
9. "Pop you over the head" may be the cutest thing Seda has said so far. I love it.
10. Heath has me feeling torn. He's so affectionate and obviously pursuing Seda... but that also creeps me out, given the circumstances. Maybe I'm just creeped out in general. Maybe it's not Heath's fault.
11. "Please tell me you didn't show them the intestines." HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Seda, I love you.
12. Okay, now I KNOW Heath has to be a bad guy. What boy says he wants to write snail mail to a girl?!?!
13. Oh, no. Did mom snap?
14. Where are all the kids?!?
15. Adam! What did that poor baby see?!? Definitely going to need some counseling in the future. Poor guy. I mean, this is NOT okay.
18. Well, now we know about dad. I kind of feel bad for Seda. Like everything in her life has lead up to this point.
19. What?!? WHAT?!?! This ending goes a little too fast for me. I wish I could slow it down.
20. So....... I'm not sure.... I'm trying really hard to not put any spoilers in this. I have some lingering questions for the author. Mostly one. ONE lingering question.
Overall, I think it's a worthwhile read. It would have gone faster if I hadn't kept putting it down to read something else so I could sleep. There's a good portion of world building and character get-to-know time before the action really picks up. I recommend it to anyone who has a couple of hours and enjoys a twisty-turny read.
*I don't make any money off the Amazon links, my reviews, etc. It's seriously just one reader to another.*
Mandy Peterson is the author of "Before I Shatter". She is also a mother, wife, librarian, book reviewer, and self-proclaimed chocolate connoisseur.